Yesterday’s gratitude challenge word was “Feelings” and frankly I’m over them right now. And I’m tapped out with this gratitude challenge. I’m taking a break mentally, physically, geographically, and God-willing emotionally. I’m grateful. Truly. But not for the sake of slogging through something.
I’m going to go spend time with people I love, who love me. I’m going to eat some good food and help with chores. Maybe do a little shopping…
What I know for certain—I have a lot I’m grateful for and I hurt and grieve at the same time. Grief is layered, nuanced, and multi-faceted. Sometimes it knocks me down for a couple of rounds. And old grief and new bruises can also coincide. What a trip!
I’m a tender nugget and I’m going to tend to the ouchies for a while. It doesn’t mean I’m not grateful, it just means I’m going inward for a bit.
All good. Promise.
Feryl Files 
Love you Becci! You were a trooper keeping up with this while heading into such a bittersweet season. November is hard for your twin brother Michael too – we just always try to make it to the end. Take care of your nugget self.
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