December 28th seems like a perfectly reasonable day to have a couch day. Not that reason or permission need to be a part of it, but here I am justifying it. Christmas was good and also really hard. The holiday season is good and also really hard. And the hard has caught up with me.
There’s so much to do–cleaning up boxes and tissue paper, putting away gifts. The kitchen is not completely dirty, but it’s not clean either. Laundry. Sweeping. There’s still mail and paperwork to be filed and sorted. And I look at it all with a big fat NOPE. Nope, not today. Today, I will not. Maybe tomorrow.
On this particular couch day, I’m going to rest and reflect. Walking in town these past gray days, I understand how people can believe in ghosts. I saw someone walking in the distance with a yellow jacket. BAM! Right in the gut. I catch somone’s profile just out of the corner of my eye. BAM! Right in the gut again. I’m sad. I’m frustrated. And sometimes I’m even mad. How dare he leave me! It is possible to be grateful, joyful, and completely heartbroken and mad all at the same time. It’s a lot to process and so once in a while–COUCH DAY.
I hope if you’re in need of a break, you can catch a couch day soon. We can pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off, start all over again, but tomorrow. Today, we couch.
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Feryl Files 
I had a recliner day yesterday. And really it wasn’t enough to recharge my batteries – the holidays are just brutal.
I’m angry too that you had to lose your person.
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Man, this is heartwrenching to read! No matter how one looks at it , not having your person with you is unbearably painful. I imagine losing my person and I cry for what it must feel like for you.
I’ve been having as many couch days or part of days, as I can on this Winter Break but I woke up this morning thinking I’m not even close to being finished with resting and being quiet and I go back to teaching on the 8th. I like teaching but it’s intense and right now I crave SLOW and QUIET (rather than constant movement and speaking 10,000 or more words a day..lol!).
Enjoy your couch time. ❤️ and I am enjoying mine too.
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I had mine yesterday. The holidays bring up so much. New people in my life since his death don’t really understand. And I ate too much junk, which contributes to my mood and my cold. Ugh…throw in no exercise and gray days and we all need a soft blanket and peppermint tea.
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